finally,the terror inside is gone.thanks dad for finally waking up and paying for the fines.it was shocking lar.i was at the cell slacking when suddenly the warden came.
warden:oi #$%^&*(calls my number)
me:what?
warden:got surprise for u today.
me:(stun)huh?what siah u talking?
warden:(unlocks my cell door)FOLLOW ME!.
me:(still stun?)

he brought me to a room,with only a lamp above my head.

warden:wait here!
me:wad u trying to do?
warden:QUIET AND WAIT!!
me:(sigh,all i had in mind was its gonna be something bad)

suddenly the door opened,and it was my dad!
me:(shocked and almost cried)*speechless
warden:ur dad paid the fine 3 days ago,and today we release u.
me:for real?
warden:dun wan ah?dun wan i put u back in ur cell.
me:EH WANT WANT WANT!!!super excited..but still blank thoughts.
dad:(sitting in front of me alre)i never pay the fine earlier because i wan teach u a lesson.
me:(starting to tear alre)oh.
dad:now i think u had enough.that ham say ur lani cant wait to see u.
me:REALLY?!!ya la i miss her alot.Sir what time can release?
warden:i later bring u go sign,farewell to ur cellmates.u wan kiss also i dun care.den u go change,den wait at holding bay.
me:HOLDING BAY AGAIN?!(coz the last time i waited was hours)
warden:want go out or dun want?
me:kkkkkkkkkkkk

i waited and waited until finally about 11am they release me.i didnt call anyone yet coz maybe u all are schooling or something.so i slept my way in the cab :DDDDDDD!!!! omg im like so fucking excited now.!!wah my house also so nice alre,but sad to say.i didnt become muscular but skinnier.coz fasting month.sian~ now i just cant wait to see lani!!!!rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
i so miss her so much!!!i wan hug her so tight!!!i wan kiss her!!!!k sorry i sound so desperate.see ya guys!!!

WOOT 6 HOURS PLUS AND BYE GUYS!!

to:Leilani,
thanks for being there for me just now,i didnt expect it to be that way.thanks for lending me ur shoulder and letting me cry all my tears out.thanks for ur advices.im happy,coz i get to see u smiling before i go in.i had a very good day with u today.thanks alot.besides,we did a good heart to heart talking didnt we?remember our deal?i hope u stick to your promise, i hope the theory "promises are meant to be broken" dont happen this time.because i really really believe u now.my trust for u is gaining again ;D now at least i can go in smiling.knowing u will wait for me.i trust u my dear.i hope u really wait.hmmm.i duno wad else to say.well,take care of urself while im away k?im sorry i cannot take care of u.dun worry as soon as i come out,i'll call u first!you can smell my smelly pillow if u miss me too much.or look at the pictures i drew for you.i love the bird picture.wad a potrait;D love you forever.

to:my family
mom,im sorry,im sorry i disappointed u again.this time really big disappointment.i know u are embarrassed to face our relatives during Hari Raya.coz you wont know wad to say to them rite?just say i go oveseas study or something.at least ure proud.u still can live mom,im not dead.im just far away from you.cheer up mom.i know i will cry when the judge knocks his hammer.and dad,thanks for bailing me the other time.i know u didnt scold me,but inside ur heart,i know ure disappointed at me and crying.im sorry to you too.such a useless son you guys have.sorry if i have to spoil any of your Hari Raya mood.

to:friends
you guys,thanks for the caring smses and msn.i will take care of myself aite?you guys be strong outside.now den i know,who my friends really are,im sad that even my used-to-be close friends couldnt spend 5 mins to just farewell me.dun be surprised if i come out,i am cold towards u.whoever thinks u are the one,u are the one.


I CAN ASSURE THAT........................
when im inside,1st person in my mind will be Leilani Lim Zhiyi.i will definitely miss her.wondering what she's doing outside.got naughty anot?eat alre anot?things like this.dun worry dearest,i wont be gay inside.i will tell them i have a gf.even if i have to face the 4 walls everyday,i will imagine ur face on the wall.or maybe look at my hand to think of u ;D at least u gave me something just now so that i can remember u.I CAN ALSO ASSURE THAT......i will be a totally new person when i come out.totally changed.coz confirm inside,i will learn lots of new lessons,get new experiences and even make new friends.i wont get influenced.anyway,im real sad i have to celebrate Hari Raya kissing the four walls.there goes my 2009 hongbao.i guess its time for bed now.will blog again when im back..which is duno when..i hope letters can be wrote..

my last words will be,"don't do things without thinking,you will regret AND ALSO disappoint others around you without you even knowing a single thing".

see ya my blog readers.....
With Love,
AhTurl

21 hours and counting.................


skipped school today.didnt had the mood.later meeting ex gf (MAYBE) for lunch.maybe pass her the letter also.if she cant make it den im meeting joanna,shuning and yijie for lunch.at night meeting chiko they all.said they had some sorta surprise for me.curious babe~~~~~~~~~~~

but still my heart keeps pounding faster and faster as the hours draw by.a month or more is not long.but the sad thing is,i cant even celebrate Hari Raya with my family.

31 more hours..

had a chat at phone with ex gf just now.cleared some question marks and some doubts..even if u dun care,i still wan u to listen coz i dun wan u to misunderstand this whole thing.i wan u to get the facts right.the things u tell me really really hurt my feelings deeply inside.0% hope and totally not increasing is way too dificult to fight for.but i wont give up.u know me well.im as stubborn as u.i totally dun feel ur love anymore.i guess that makes me such a useless and bad boyfriend,that u can forget me easily within days.even im ur longest,even we lasted 7 months.i hope my explainations to u cleared everything.

the letter.please read it.its nicely done and packed.its just left to pass to u only ;D
loves.

went back home straight after school.many thinks to think about.thursday,my life,my working life,my studies..im simply just stress,sad,disappointed in myself,no mood and feel like dying..


the reason we keep quarreling and u keep shouting at me is,u hear ur SISTERS advice or whoever person who keeps telling u craps bout me.BUT u didnt ask me nicely and didnt give me a chance to tell u my side of the story.what has carebear got to do with me?thats a weird thing.nvm all these nonsense alre.thursday morning dont forget to meet me take my farewell letter to u aite?u wan burn or throw its up to u.BUT PLEASE READ IT FIRST I BEG U.

yet another tragedy,went riding with ham,and got caught at a road block at telok blangah.LOL!GOOD GAME!FINALLY FOUND U POLICE!so had a delay delay,den me and ham was brought back to station..den he got out coz his dad bailed him..as for me my dad came so damn late..but I CANNOT BE FREED!until few hours ago..i didnt eat whole day till now..i cant find things to eat..so here i am blogging..so my IO say 20th dunid think much..think of family can alre..duno wad he mean by that yeah?guess im flying inside..

ever since we broke,things start to haunt us.be it tag,be it smses,be it comments,but dun worry yeah?they wont take long.u know who u are ;D

TO PEOPLE WHO TAG MY EX BLOG SAYING BOUT ME,U WAN ME COME GET ME,I HAVE A BLOG COME TAG ME,FASTER HORRR BEFORE 20TH LATER 20TH ALRE DEN I CAN HAVE FUN..WAN MY NUMBER CAN ASK LANI..


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now im going out to play pool with my cousin,suf. anyone wanna join gimme a message.we're playing at IRC at Timah ;D

as the days count to 20th August 2009,10:15 AM,my body just gets weaker.my illness i have is getting worser and worser.it just cant get better.i almost fainted playing soccer just now,i vomited after playing and my head is aching now with temperature of 38.6 degrees.I've been sick a week now,and no one cares bout me.im still counting down,as the day goes nearer my heart beats faster and faster and im weaker and weaker.someone please tell me wads wrong..

Labels: i cant shake u off and i still love u.

wad a day to celebrate my national day,sick till like hell.den duno wad happened to baby.her last text was saying she know that she has to go watch fireworks with me.but i tried texting and calling her.no answers?no replies?hais..so i went queensway alone,walked one round,eat otah and stuffs.den went to wait for baby under her block.but den i saw my sis so i went home.


baby,its not ur fault.i understand u have neglected ur friends for very long.cause u were always with me.i guess now its ur turn to be with them.im just sad u broke ur promises.u could at least told me the truth so i wont be so angry.now,wherever u are,whatever u are doing,i wan u to know one thing.i will always love u.no matter what.and please. im begging u,to please give me a call as soon as possible.if ure outside no money go home,tell me i will pay.just meet me soon please.

HAPPY 7TH MONSARY BABY LOVE!~

okay people,we celebrated our 7th month together in a weird way and i mean WEIRD~haha dun wan elaborate but just spent it eating and more eating~ jiayou ahturl eat more,u've gotta grow BIGGER!!!

yest went to uncle's place to visit my granny,gosh i miss her.!she was happy to see me ;D ate at watched "KNOWING!" den decided to go back,so me and ham,raced back home!while racing some accident happened.gladly im still okay.the thing just fell on my leg like a timber.did a little bit of servicing for my bike and dats it.sian tmr early morning must go and take motor alre @.@ die siah~ and im still not sleeping...cant sleep.maybe need few more sticks den can sleep.i should try.anyway,i saw this cousin of mine,i think about 3 or 4 years old.she is so sweet,her name is err actually i duno her name.BUT I CALL HER SWEETIE!COZ SHE VERY SWEET!!!OMG~ k lar.blog more later :D toddles~